Holy shizznat you guys! I'm BACK.
It's full on been forever since I've been on here! How's it going? I've missed it here!
There have been a lot of changes in my life lately, yanno? I mean, it's actually been a year and a half since I've even been logged into livejournal. I'm fifteen now! It's weird, because I'm perpetually seven years old, so I get confused because now I have, like, responsibilities.
I'm not very much into JPop or KPop anymore. As I got older and more mature, I stopped being very excited by that stuff. I mean, I still like listening to my boys, but I'm more of a genuine nerd now. XD I like comic books and video games and movies based on comic books and games based on movies based on comic books now!
And I actually watch TV now-- this was an especially weird happening, because I realized that I actually like TV shows. Like, I knew I would like comics and movies, because that's the kinda stuff I like, but now I realize that television can actually interest me. I never thought my attention span would hold up for stuff like that.
And sure, the TV I like is nerdy and silly and BBC Merlin and Sherlock and NCIS and The A-Team, but it interests me. I can sit through and hour-long episode without screaming or going more insane than usual.
WHICH-- was another interesting development. I have anxiety issues, I'm socio-/xenophobic, and apparently PTSD, which is cool. I was wondering why I hyperventilate around people.
I have a worrystone. Let me repeat that. I have a WORRYSTONE. It's like this little rock(Mine is white with pink splotches and grey veins), and you put it in your pocket or on a string(Mine is a necklace), and when you get anxious or, I dunno, worried you rub it. Mine has a little indent where I rub it now.
I also found out that I am bisexual. I tried telling my mom, but I'm not sure if she's figured out that it wasn't a joke or not.
I also realized that I want to be a videogame designer, or simply a concept artist for characters and such. Or maybe a story designer for videogames.
But I've definitely decided I don't want to be normal. That shit's overrated. It's surprisingly fun to wander around the house with no pants on, screaming and singing in different accents and languages, with my pig puppet and Hello Kitty hat.
I still haven't been in a relationship with, well, anyone, and it's not to say that it's confusing, because, well, I'm annoying and nobody wants to be around me after like 4 o'clock, but it's confusing because what? I'm not totally cool and amazing and awesome? Phenomenal? Superb? What?
Anyway, yeah. Shit happened, and I feel great.
Oh guess what I also have blue hair.
- Music:You Spin Me Right Round - Dead or Alive
FIRST OF ALL YOU GUYS GO HERE!! I think I died omfg
I'm officially dating a guy I don't like. I feel bad, and I'm going to explain it to him properly on Monday, but I feel like I have to let this out. So, he's one of my best friends, and I've been freaking out over this guy that I do
like, and so when my friend sent me a note, I thought, "Eh, I'm probably not gonna get this guy I like anyway, so what's the point?" and said yes.
I don't like him like that, and sadly, I'm not attracted to him in the least. Apparently it's been "obvious that he likes me"(I never knew) and "I've been flirting with him nonstop"(that's how I act with all of my friends).
Frankly though, I doubt that he likes me either. He just got out of juvie,and I'm pretty sure that he just thinks he likes me because he wants a girlfriend, and I'm probably the only one who would say yes(for horrible reasons, nonetheless).
Sorry, you guys for going on like this, I'm just so.......ukhfal right now. I haven't written much lately, but I've been focusing more on art lately. My new manga, and all. SOMEBODY HIT ME UP ON MSN email@example.com
OH! MY RECENT DRAWINGS OF MY TWO MAIN CHARAS. IN MY MANGA:
(click to enlarge!) (synopsis here
So, the sketches for my new(untitled) manga are almost done, and I changed the names D: Because I couldn't get a clear translation for the guy's name, I had to changes it, BUT!! They both have full names which are in kanji and translated to how I'd like them to be
. Also, I've fixed up their personalities a bit.
The dude, whose name I thought was going to be Nao, is now Rihatsu Nagi(利発凪）. Rihatsu(利発) means 'Intelligence' or 'Clever'(which I thought was great, because he's totally stupid). Nagi(凪) means 'Calm' or 'Lull'(which is also awesome, because he's really eccentric and great. His entire name means 'Calm Intelligence'. He's very tsundere(mean on the outside, rolls around and cuddles his kitty on the inside), and has a bad temper, but is very emotional when it comes to feelings. He seems cool and cute, so everyone is too scared to talk to him, but all the girls love him, so all the guys hate him, so he has no friends. He was bullied because of his name, since it is one of the girlier unisex names, so if anyone calls him by his first name, he immediately lashes out.
The girl, whose name is now Zetsubou Rei(絶望霊). Zetsubou(絶望) means 'Despair'(which isn't completely true, although she's cheerful in her own innocent way(I'll draw what I mean sometime--I think it's adorable!). Rei(霊) means 'Spirit' or 'Ghost'(It was really fun to try and give her the scariest name possible XD). Altogether, her name means 'Spirit of Despair'. She's very quiet and innocent, but everyone is scared of her because she has a lot of piercings and tattoos(I'll explain that in a later entry or a drawing~), so she has no friends. She is innocent meaning she has no inkling of what happens in alleyways at night, or what men do in the bathroom when their wives aren't home, and is amazed at how cold icecream is and how tasty it is.
The two meet because they both play tennis. Rei was accepted because she intimidated everyone, and Nagi was accepted because the team captain has a crush on him. The two don't actually talk, since their images and actual personalities are very far apart, until the team manager pairs them together in doubles.
This is a fun plot that I'm really excited to go along with, and I hope that you(if you're even reading this) will follow along and like it, too!
I'm like super into NARUTO right now. and Hetalia.
What's come over me?
So, I got this dumb idea while playing Wii tennis to write a new Manga. I have no idea what the name will be, but whatever. It's about Rei and Nao. Rei is a girl whose image makes her out to be tough, mean, violent, and very rude. In reality she's very monotone, innocent(in a certain sense of the word(she's booksmart, not streetsmart), extremely polite(she only uses VERY formal language), and has no knowledge of sex or anything of the sort. Nao is a boy whose image makes him out to be frail, sickly, very smart(like booksmart) and polite. In reality he's rude, cross, constantly angry, loud, very pessimistic, more street-smart(he'll smack-a-bitch) than booksmart(straight D's) and is VERY dirty. When Nao speaks in innuendo, Rei takes it literally, such as:
N: Do you wanna butter my muffin?
R: But... you're not eating a muffin at the moment...? And, excuse me for saying this, but... I would think you would prefer jam over butter on a muffin? What am I saying? Those are your tastes, why should I be questioning them...
They play tennis. I have more, but that would be a super-spoiler.
Recently, I've been getting more into my heritage, and I know on my mother's side, I'm Swedish, but I have NO idea what nationality my father was(or is). I've gotten so interested in Scandinavian countries(Denmark, Sweden, Norway(thanks to humon's comics)), it's annoying. Like, now I have this ache to learn Swedish. The hell.
Recently I've gotten more into Naruto. Which...may or may not be a good thing, since my paranoia has gotten worse. It's hard to go into my garage at 5:30 am now. I love the storyline though, and the themesongs :D Haruka Kanata~
I love Sasuke before all the shit with Orochimaru and the Chuunin Exams start, because he's still just learning about himself and is so cocky in a little-kid way that it's beautiful. I've started re-watching all of the anime from the beginning, but oh my god there's 200 eps in just Naruto(Shippuden has like 180 or so subbed on animecrazy).
School has been, well... school. I'm a freshman, so I get bullied by upperclassmen, which my anti-social people hating skills aren't really helping with. I had been wanting to join the Swim team, but my mom never set up an appointment for the physical I needed.
Lately I've been waking up at like 5 or so, going to school, getting home at around 3:15, doing homework, chores, etc. until around midnight, and then I attempt to fall asleep. So I get around 4 to 5 hrs of sleep.
My mini dachshund, Maggie, is sick. Since she's a midget dog, she apparently can't go up(or down) the stairs, jump off the couch, etc. She recently(around my bday) got a bulged disc in he spine, and so we've been giving her medicine since then. At first, we had gotten the directions wrong so she wasn't getting enough, but now we're right on track. She's been happier and bouncier now, but we still have to keep an eye on her.
So, there's this guy at school. He's asian(aren't they all?), in my Chinese class, and I have no idea how to spell his name. Thein. Any ideas? I've been a little obsessed, because 1)he's gorgeous, and 2) I see him like EVERYWHERE in school. I found myself sneaking glitter from my mom's makeup box-thing because I wanted to seem "spontaneous". Now it's a daily thing, and I'm pretty sure he's caught me staring.
BTW. THERE'S THIS KID JIMMY. He's so awesome. Firstly, his name is JIMMY. Secondly, he's really quiet and mumbly but he says the best stuff ever! He's sosososo quiet, but recently he's been getting used to me talking to him so I think soon, we'll be good friends. ANYWAY. I'm not sure if I should be freaking out about this, but here goes!
I think he might maybe possibly idk but maybe like me. Because I'm talking to this kid Earnest in Chinese(BTW I HAVE ALL CLASSES EXCEPT FOR 4TH PERIOD WITH JIMMY. 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, and 7th period are all with Jimmy.) and Jimmy sits behind me, so as I'm talking he butts in every once in a while. ANYWAY. I'm talking, and I noticed that 半 in Japanese and 半 in Chinese are the same, so I'm like, "Oh, that means half." OKAY WELL IT GOES LIKE THIS:
Me: Oh, that means half.
Earnest: How do you know that?
Jimmy: She must be Asian.
E: Do you like, know Chinese or something?
M: No, I've been studying Japanese for a couple years now, and some of the characters mean the same thing.
J: 好きだよ。 (as in I LIKE YOU)
I don't know how to react, so I'm like "oh" and turn around like an asshole.
HOLY CRAP THIS IS THE FIRST TIME ANYBODY'S EVER(MAYBE) LIKED ME. WHAT TO DO.
THAT IS ALL.
BTW ANYONE WANNA MAKE ME A LAYOUT FOR THE NEW COMM I'M MAKING?
Title: A Prince and A Thief
Pairing: KoyaShige, TegoMass, TomaPi
Genre: Angsty Romantic Comedy with a hint of Smut
Summary: Koyama is super poor and Shige is super rich. They're best friends since the day they meet, when Koyama was whined into going to an expensive private school and decided he was going to stop being a wuss and resorted to serious measures. Well, theft. Shige catches Koyama and tells him he'll help Koyama if Koyama will be his, body and soul. Though it doesn't last long. A Prince and A Thief, well, the title doesn't really work anymore, but this is a story about the shit they go through. Rape, Pain, Murder, Theft, and Ryo. It all ends with money... or something.
A/N: ........What do you want me to say? I'm an asshole. OH BTW ---INSERT AWESOME DISCLAIMER HERE--- So, the last chapter was posted in June, and this is the last chapter. I have an epilogue coming up, and I love all you guys who have stuck with this story, and I forgive you guys who dropped it a while ago, and I'm sorry that it took me so long. WC 3116, which I hope makes up for my shitty posting rate. HAVE FUN, and I hope you like it.
Prev. Chaps: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7)(8)(9)(10)
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I WROTE SO MUCH. I WROTE LIKE TWOTHOUSAND WORDS AND AN EPILOGUE, AND IT'S GONE.
I WROTE LIKE A THREE THOUSAND WORD CHAPTER 12 OF APAAT AND MOST OF THE EPILOGUE AND IT'S ALL GONE.
I MIGHT HAVE TO KILL MYSELF.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO YOU GUYS. I WAS ALMOST FINISHED AND ABOUT TO POST IT AND WORD STOPPED WORKING AND SUDDENLY EVERYTHING I WROTE WAS GONE.